Sunday, December 21, 2008  9:07 PM
Gravity is working against me
My sweet tooth has come out of its hiding and its latest obsession has been ice-cream. I'm digging into a pint of Haagen daaz's macadamia nut as I'm writing this, and yesterday we drove all the way to Seventh Heaven, located in a faraway industrial park to savour their deliciously creamy alcoholic ice-cream. We had eight scoops and a warm chocolate cake between the four of us, and I think my new comfort food is now a tough fight between their chocolate and coffee and peanut butter flavours.
It has been a strange week, and I've been slipping in and out of vivid dreams and sleeping way too much into the afternoon because I want to sink back into the story in my subconscious mind to find out the ending of things. I feel like a slug after, but my willpower reduces itself to nothing when that happens. And then there are days where I cannot sleep at all, because my mind runs images like reels of film playing out a deliberate act before my eyes. I've had strong deja vu feelings and convictions, I've prayed more this week than I do normally and God has been speaking to me every single day as I spend an extended period of time with Him each day. In some ways, I feel more real than I have in weeks, this quiet week of mine which was spent mostly in slumber.
A battle between shutting it out and surrendering. I'm learning quickly, and I believe myself to be daft before this realisation.
Things are changing faster than I imagined and my life is finally one I can call my own. Sharon's baptised, bev's home, and christmas is four days away. I have so much to be thankful for.
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