Monday, September 20, 2004  9:33 PM
walking in the dark.
how do i even begin to describe this day?
it's rather like being put through the chamber of horrors. i hate getting back exam scripts. i'd much rather be doing the exams all over again. haha. okay on second thought, no way. the last month has seriously been torture. i don't know how i'm ever going to go through those nights ever again, when my brain's simply running on awful tasting coffee (ever since the good brand ran out, and my maid just got too lazy to listen to my endless whinings and requests) and i'm so sure nothing's going in but i stay up just so it makes me "feel better".
so you wait and you wait and stare in fear at the teacher who seems to have your whole life in his hands. take for example, johnnie smith. lol, doesn't that sound absolutely adorable? johnnie talks like nobody's business. half of what he says is irrelevant and alot of the time, the reason why he rambles is because he refuses to let us off until the bell rings. and then just as you're about ready to throttle him, he hands the papers out and your heart simply breaks, or it could soar. most of my life, i've experienced the breaking sensation. i can hardly remember a time when it soared. except, maybe when i was seven, but at that time, who even bothers about exams? i'm frightened now, this was the supposed "last chance" we had before the real thing, and judging from the grades now, the a levels won't be much better.
it's like stepping into a dark tunnel with no answers nor end, and you hope to see the light at the end of the tunnel, giving you some kind of direction or faith to trust again. but sometimes, you walk endlessly and the light never shines.
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