Monday, April 27, 2009  11:37 PM
We are one tonight
As I bid 22 farewell, I say goodbye to a year of growth, friendships made, bittersweet miracles, letting go, reflections and the last of my formal education.
It's hard to be completely enthusiastically bouncy happy on birthdays anymore. The feeling has evolved from a day of pure unadulterated fun that I used to look forward to as a child, to a sense of nostalgia and sadness that hits you like a tidal wave every year. Perhaps it's a phase for the twentysomethings, maybe it'll come to a point where you won't even care anymore and the day will eventually pass you by like any other day - but while I turn 23, it's heightened emotion and a rollercoaster of feelings which makes you that bit more emotional than other days. It's intertwined emotions, a poignant mixture of the good and the bad. Who knew?
I took the last exam of my life one week ago, I turn 23 today. Too many changes, and they'll just keep coming, won't they? I have lofty dreams. I want to careen down life in fits of laughter with someone I love, in that oneness which is a rarity, to be understood like how I understand myself. I want to be able to invent the splittable bed someday. I want to live in Hong Kong, in New York, in Spain, and in the secret place I have yet to discover. I want fashion to change the world, to help humanity more than the feeble efforts it generates at present. I want to trust, to live in complete faithfulness with His footprints in the sand.
Happy birthday.
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